You can make it when you really want it

Excuses are so easy to use. We use excuses to fool others. Ironically in the long run, excuses can not fool others. Unexpectedly, we ourselves are the only ones who eventually fooled by our own excuses. Yes, maybe people hear my excuses a few times and temporally buy them. But to do this, I have to rehearse these excuses for myself hundreds of times so that I actually use them. According to this, who will be fool is obvious.

It is sad, that I fooled myself to believe that I have done my best with my every cell while the reality is I didn’t. I failed my time even without noticing that I failed it. So I hate excuses. Fact is fact, I cannot lie to myself.

No excuses.

For what I didn’t get, without excuses, the only answer is that I didn’t really really die for it. Retrospect my life, I grew up from nothing. I have got what I fought for. I failed a lot of things, a lot. I have to admit that I didn’t really die for them. I failed those things and people, more importantly, I failed myself.

But I learnt a lesson. You can make it when you really want it.

Background song: Nanshan Nan.

—Negentropist.Z